I seriously never sleep and I always have bags under my eyes.
I wish I could just be well rested but now is not the time. I’m young and have so much energy. Why waste time sleeping when I could be working double shifts, at the bar with my co workers, hanging out with my boyfriend, or be at the gym yawning. (Hahaha) yeah I’m young and have the rest of my life to catch up on sleep . I guess I’ll look like a zombie forever!
I’m don’t really ask for a lot of things.
The only thing I honestly want is love,honesty, and trust.
Since I’ve written on here but I’ve been way too busy with work. I’m trying to get my shit together but it’s harder than I thought. I wanted to get my car sometime this winter but I don’t think that’ll happen. My loans are coming this winter. The only way is getting a second job and I think I may take that route. Whatever it takes to get where I want to get. Hopefully I can get a job at my gym.
I’ve come to realize that I never have energy when I hangout with my boyfriend. I sacrifice my sleep when I’m with him. We sleep late wake up early when were together. Then he asks me why I look miserable uhhhh I get zero sleep when were together, duh! Weekends are rough for me and then I make time for my boyfriend on my days off and get zero sleep therefore I never catch up on my sleep.
Story of my life .
I think cute, love, and romance
you think Subaru, money, and friends
Story of my life in these couple of words .
My love life is just a tad bit sad.
Or maybe I’m the problem and I just want romance .
I can atleast say that I try and if someone takes it for granted thats their fault.
I know if it continues I won’t last long, I’ll break down and make realizations. I’ll break away and find a new chapter in my life. But the real question is, how much longer will I let this go on for..
I care more than I should and this really sucks . I just want someone who cares . I want someone who will be there. When change occurs that’s when things begin to fall apart.
I’ve noticed that I don’t have really close friends. Yeah sure, I know people and I socialize but I have zero close friends. I sometimes wonder if it’s because I’m a twin. I grew up having a best friend all my life, and my older sister who is also another best friend of mine. I wonder if I’m scared to find another best friend besides my twin sister. We’ve grown apart the last couple of years which makes me really sad but maybe it could be a good thing. I guess you can say that we’ve been trying to find ourselves the last couple of years without being beside each other. Separating is scary, but I know we’ll always be there for each other even though we have our rough patches. I’m the youngest so I feel like I’m the only one who feels this way the most.