That’s all I want to be asked.
I just want you to show that you care.
That you care how my day went like I care about how yours.
You’re all about cars, skiing, and gym.
Oh and yourself .. How about me?
I’m all about gym, work, and school.
The difference between me and you …
I’m ready to share my life with someone.
I ask you how your day went, when you’re sick .. I say get better.
You on the hand never ask me or never say feel better baby.
It’s weird because I thought when you loved someone .. It’s because you care for them.
You care if the person is sick and you hope they feel better, you ask them how their day went because you care and want to listen, you post pictures on social networks to show off the love you have for that special someone, you make time for them in your busy schedule, you make sacrafices, you want to make them happy without dreading over it.
What I get is misery.
I ask for a massage and it takes about an hour to get one from you because you dread over it.
I say let’s go for a walk and you go try to change the plans so we don’t go for a walk.
If you’re miserable then .. Leave.
My mother has put me down all my life and continues to put me down. She doesn’t appreciate shit that I do. I never wanna be like her it’s the reason why I stopped telling her anything about my life. I can’t wait to leave one day. All my life she put me down that’s the fucking reason she’s not attending my college graduation. I could careless . Whatever I do is never good enough.
My life is just getting more complicated or maybe easy.
I got the new job.
my hours are flexible.
There’s a possibility that I can go back to school in February..
If everything goes as planned.
I hope for the best.
I don’t think asking for someone to care about the relationship is asking for a lot .
The fact that I need to ask you to show me that you care about us is sad.
If you cared it would come out of your heart.
Two years and you just tell me you are and that you love me.
I’m tired of hearing it I need you to show me so I can believe it.
Anyone else can tell me the same thing.
I’m gonna put 100% on me.
And forget about the rest.
I don’t really feel like I’m apart of your life.
You barely talk to me.
I feel pushed away?
At the moment I’m taking two terms off because I didn’t have any choice. I couldn’t pay the rest of my school tuition to continue. The past two months I’ve been working day and night. One huge problem, the catering company I work for at the moment is at their slow season. I finally found a second job at a bakery and I had my first trial and let me tell you how nerve racking it was. Thank god I had my boyfriend to give me some advice and motivate me since he had many trials for jobs as a pastry chef. I truly do love having him in my life because I learn from him and he pushes me to the limit. I’m not sure if I would be this strong if I didn’t have him there to push me. Anyhow, I have a second job this winter season and I hope to grasp a lot of information and recipes. I most definitely want to get the bakery aspect down and move on to plating desserts at a restaurant in the summer. I plan to explore this summer and work at a restaurant and learn the restaurant aspect as a pastry chef. It never hurts to expand your knowledge and one day say that you can work at a bakery, resturant, or with a catering company because you’ve worked at all levels.
Besides bakeries and catering companies are slow in the summer so a restaurant experience would be great! Late nights and early mornings of sleeping in hahah. I’m so ready to progress and hopefully I can afford to go back to school in April and finally graduate!
I’ve been upset and angry with him so I was ignoring him and being pissy all night. He continues to be happy and likes to make me laugh but I’m being mean to him. So why is he still trying to make me laugh and have a good time?
Is he just ignoring the problems? Or is he really trying to make everything better? Am I being a brat? Or wtf is wrong with me. I like making everything right by talking it out and he likes to ignore the problem, say sorry and continue being happy. I think I just dwell on things and when he doesn’t. He just brushes it off. Well I wish I could just brush if off too why can’t I? Who’s right or who’s wrong?
Why do I bother to try?